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Sunday, May 9, 2010

URL changed AGAIN

Assalammualaikum.
I'm terribly sorry, i gotta change my url again.
It is now http://nur-akmar.blogspot.com

Why?

Because:

  1. I myself had trouble spelling the url correctly everytime i want to type it out fast.
  2. It's difficult for people to remember my url.
Sorry, please change my link on your link list, again.
Sorry for troubling.
Thank you. =P

Monday, May 3, 2010

He is Enough for Me

In MUET (Malaysian University English Test) speaking component, examinees will be given a topic and they're supposed to discuss on the topic, in a group.

For my exam, my topic was something like, where should we go to when we're in trouble. And I was supposed to answer "parents" (yeah, the question will give you the answer, you should just construct your own words and play along. Other examinees will get different answers, that was how the exam goes) 

The reason I gave was parents are definitely older than us and so, they know more things than we know, most of the time more than what we think they know. And so, going to them for moral support is very recommended because chances are, they went through this problem we're having in early 20s. 

I also said that going to peers are not well recommended, for the fact that peers are as inexperienced as we are. Peers might be having just the same problem we are having. In Malay language, there's a proverb, "bagai ketam mengajar anaknya berjalan lurus". Literally translated, it means "like a crab teaching it's kids(?) to walk straight". My own created English proverb: "A monkey teaching another monkey how to cook using a microwave oven".

That is precisely the reason why I am very grateful for my family. A very supportive parents, whom I know I can always fall back on when anything goes wrong. My mum said that's one of the reason I always do things blatantly, because I know I can fall back on them, morally. And I am pretty sure some if not many of us have a supportive family, I hope so.

But, what if the problem does not only inflict us as an individual?
What if it inflicted the whole family?
Say, the sickness of a family member, or worse, the death of a family member.

At that point, every member of that family has their own grief to attend to, despite having to be supportive to each other.
At this point, family members cannot afford to fall back onto their family for moral support, each and every one of them needs something to fall back on, no energy to support someone else.

Wanna hope for non family members?
Slim chance there will be anyone, unless you're blessed with caring, patient friends.  =)


"HasbiAllahu laa ilaaha illaa Huwa 'alayhi tawakkaltu wa Huwa Rabbul Arshil Adheem"


please please please read all the meanings in this post. they are very beautiful. I know some readers will tend to scroll down but, believe me, these meanings are worth reading, and knowing. And they really are not many of them. =)



Allah is sufficient for me. 
There is none worthy of worship but Him.
I have placed my trust in Him. He is Lord of the Majestic Throne

And so, feel free to fall back on Him.
For He is always near to us. What we need to do is just pray to Him. Just pray to Him.

He promised, he'll be there for us.

"When My servant ask you concerning Me, I am indeed close (to them): I listen to the prayer of every supplicant when he calls on Me; let them also, with a will, listen to My call, and believe in Me: that they may walk in the right way" [2;186]"

He promised! Yes, He promised!
=)

And there's another promise, we will not be burdened more than what we can bear.
We will only be tested with bearable tests, those within our capabilities.

"Allah does not impose upon any soul a duty but to the extent of its ability" [2;286]


****A strong reminder to myself, and to friends out there. He promised, He'll be there for us. Any other being in this world can promise that? To be there whenever you need them? To be ready to listen to any of your cries? And to really really be there when you need them? ****

Sincerely from, 
-AkMaR-
http://ineffabledivineserenity.blogspot.com

Monday 3rd May 2010
10.25pm

Saturday, May 1, 2010

New URL

Yeah, sorry...
I know this is kinda troubling but, I don't think I should stick with the url akmarr90.
It's too personal.

So, remember to change my url in your link list, if you have one.

Again, sorry for any inconvenience caused.
=)

-AkMaR-
http://ineffabledivineserenity.blogspot.com

Sunday 2nd May 2010
2.22pm

The Power of Love

A conversation between 2 little girls:

"What do you want to be when you grow big?"
"I want to be a nurse...."
"Ooohh, I want to be a doctor.."

At this point, the adults stopped listening,

"No, you cant. You have to become a nurse before you can be a doctor...."
"Really?"

And today (1st May 2010), is the wedding day of one of the girls.

I met her more than 10 years ago, when my first uncle received his first daughter.
She's my auntie's (my uncle's wife) niece.
At that time, I did not know how old was she, but I was about 6 or 7 years old.
I think she was of the same size with me, perhaps same age, or maybe a year or two older, or younger. I really can't remember.
And I've never seen her after that.
There was never an occasion where these our families met again. Maybe I did meet her, I just did not know that it was her.

And tonight, I attended her wedding.

And as all of you might be thinking, which of the girls was me.
I was the one who said I wanted to be a nurse, because a nurse will be promoted to become a doctor. 
I don't mind people laughing at me, I was in my pre-school! At least I know that doctors and nurses work together, and there is such a thing called promotion. =)

Mum told me last week that my "old friend" is getting married.
I was shocked, she couldn't be much older than me.
If she's not my age, she might just be a year or two older.
And she's getting married?
That's good news!
I remembered mum told me that her father is a doctor.
*I don't know why but I felt very acquainted as soon as I hear that her father is a doctor. Silly of me..*

And so tonight, I attended my "old friend"'s wedding, a very old friend that I don't even remember her name neither her face.

The wedding was not a huge one, only close friends and family were invited.
Nevertheless, it was grand.
The bride's house was a big bungalow.
One do not have to be smart to know that this doctor is not just any doctor, to own a house like this.
And I would say the family was a wealthy one.
The menu was mutton and fish. And the rice was served in a goat's abdomen.
Urrgh, I don't know how to describe it, it sounded gross now.
It wasn't gross, it was unique instead.


And then, I got to know that the bride is 23 years old, she IS a bit older than me.
But it is still considerably an early age to get married, relative to the culture now. We got to know that the bride had just graduated this year while the groom has started working. Perhaps he is a year or two older than his wife.
My mum praises the marriage however.
She IS into early marriages, or at least she does not oppose it.
According to her, it's the society that made it hard for a couple to get married.
The society made it in such a way that the couple must have a steady career, steady background, steady finance etc etc before getting married.
But, it is human nature that they want companionship.
Hence, young couples will get together, and some of them might just go the wrong way, to get companionship, without marriage.

"Why can't a couple go through their life together, getting stable together and achieving success together, married?" -quoted from, my mum.

Frankly, looking at the bride and groom, I felt a sudden rush of jealousy.
But jealousy, is not at all time bad, isn't it?
Just like fear can be a good motivation, *quoted* jealousy can also be a good motivation.
And don't ask me what kind of drive did it give me, I'd like to keep it to myself. =)
A jealousy without hoping the other party being inflicted with something bad, is a good jealousy.

Then there was a surprise performance.
The bride's elder brother sang for his newly-wed younger sister.
For me, that was a very sweet and pleasant gift from an elder brother.
Dush! Another rush of jealousy in me... *evil Akmar*

Mum said to me while looking at the newly-weds, "They have the whole life ahead of them, they have to go through everything that comes their way from now on, together". A wise saying from an experienced tough woman.

Going to a wedding of someone not so much older than me got me thinking.
Got me thinking a LOT.
And then, seeing my parents in the car, made me think even MORE.
What did I think about?
Again, I'd prefer keeping it to myself.
=)

What's the point of this post?
: To tell the whole world that I have just came back from a beautiful wedding.

I sincerely wish the new young married couple a happy, blissful and adventurous life ahead. Amin... =)

Why the title "The Power of Love"?
:The song was played in the wedding just now. And somehow I can't stop humming the chorus, it's stucked in my head. Might as well put it as the title. =)


-AkMaR-
http://akmarr90.blogspot.com


Saturday, 2nd May 2010.
12.30am

Friday, April 30, 2010

Viva Palestina Malaysia Charity Bazaar


Viva Palestina Malaysia is organising a charity bazaar in Bangsar Shopping Centre on the 8th and 9th May.
There will be clothes, handbags and household items for sale.
Food (nasi beriyani, nasi turki, nasi dagang, quiche and cakes) and also drinks to fulfil your appetite!
There will also be lots other activities eg face-painting, art competition, quiz and performances by artists.


Do come and visit the bazaar!
Have fun! =)


-AkMaR-
 http://akmarr90.blogspot.com

Saturday, 1st May 2010
12.34am

Quote

"Anyone who can bow down to God, can stand up to anything"





I love this quote!
=)

-AkMaR-
 http://akmarr90.blogspot.com

Friday 30th April 2010
11.17pm

Just If That Did Not Happen

"Just if that did not happen, i could have............"


"If I did not................ I might have..............."


"Just if........................"


I think most of us might have said or at least thought of these sentences at any part of our life.
Or worse, some of us might still think this and kept in heart for years, regretting of something that had happened years ago.


I read that Muslims are not supposed to say "just if i hadn't done this etc etc" when something goes wrong, because everything that happened are the work of God, and there is no way we could have changed it. I'm sorry but I only know that this is from a hadith, a Sahih Muslim.


I had, thought of these sentences before.
But not for long because I clearly know that if that did not happen, other things might have happened, and whatever I am facing now will not happen.
So for me, anyone who hold on to the sentence is actually someone who DOES NOT appreciate what he/she is having in his/her life now.


If whatever it is that that person regret happened did not happen, he/she will not have what he/she has in his life now.


              Z lost his watch in a camping he went with friends last semester holiday. He went to search for the watch with his friends and they spent 1 hour looking for it all around, under the tent, behind the trees, beside the river, behind the toilet, basically everywhere. But they couldn't find it. 


            Z regretted bringing that watch to the camping, his mother had even reminded him not to bring it there because he was a very careless boy. Z brought it because he wanted to show his friends his new watch. Now, Z is already at home, telling his mother that he lost the watch. He was scolded. 


          Z regretted so much that he wished he could have turned back the time so that he will not bring that watch, or leave that watch unattended during the camp. He is willing to exchange almost anything he has to turn the time back. 


         Two years passed, Z still cannot forget the watch and he still regrets bringing the watch to the camping. He bought a new watch but, he still long for the old watch.


In my honest opinion, Z shouldn't have regretted, things happened, the damage is done. 
If he had not lose his watch at that time, he would not have searched for the watch for an hour with his friends. The watch-hunt miraculously strengthened their friendship and they are the best friends Z can ever bargain for. 


Or, if he had not lose the watch, Z would not have learnt from his mistake not to leave his belongings unattended. He might leave even more valuable things unattended, say his wallet or mobile phone.


Had Z not lose the watch, something else might had happened to him. They will not be an hour late, but they might have got involved with an accident on their way back home. They escaped that accident because they were an hour late, searching for the watch.


Had Z not lose the watch, his mother would not have scolded him. By scolding him, his mother might had avoided some other bad things in her life. His mother might be tired after scolding him and decided to rest at home when initially she planned to go to the market. Maybe on that day, the meat sold in the market were infected meat. People eating that meat were sent to the hospital for food poisoning. Seeing him scolded, his siblings knew and learnt that they should listen when their mum asked them not to bring valuables to camping. 


So many things happened just because of ONE thing, be it a good or a bad thing.
And ALL these had been planned by Him. Nothing can change His law, His plan. Nothing can challenge His power.


And by regretting his action bringing the watch to the camping, Z is not being appreciative. 
He does not appreciate the fact that he is still alive when he could have been killed in the accident he missed by being an hour late. He does not appreciate the fact that his siblings have became one step wiser, learning from his mistake instead of making their own. He does not appreciate the friendship he has now with his friends, which was greatly strengthened by the watch-hunting process.
He also does not appreciate the fact that his mother is still alive and well, for avoiding something bad in her life, had she not spent time scolding him 2 years back.


I know this example may sound ridiculous but, it applies, the concept is still there.
Would you want to turn your time back, change some things and risk everything you have now? 




Just if my mum did not meet my dad, this post will not be here.
And Obama might not even be the president of US!
Who knows, a lot of things happened as a consequence of my parents' meeting.
It's not impossible isn't it?
=)

-AkMaR-
http://akmarr90.blogspot.com

30th April 2010
5.23pm

Thursday, April 29, 2010

For The Past One Week

I fell sick last Saturday.
Couldn't get up from bed for two days.
Spent the weekend on bed.

Went to clinic on Monday, blood count was normal.

Went to PBL on Tuesday morning, periodic cough attacks, I gotta run out of the room in the middle of discussion a few times, gasping for air.
Wondering how to survive two hours in the lecture theatre, fairly sure the periodic unstoppable cough will be attacking and batchmates' attention will be disturbed by my endless periodic cough.
Thought of hanging out with Dina and Sarah at Sunway. Plan didnt work out.
Light headedness in the afternoon, went back home.
Slept the whole evening.
Study a bit at night.

Wednesday, still coughing badly...
Need to run to the toilet few times, stomach content banging to get out, but through the wrong direction.
In desperate need of a bronchodilator.
Did not go for lecture.
Self study at home, blogged and fb-ed (wasting time basically).

Thursday, got up late.
Did not go for lecture too.
Coughing better than Wednesday but still need to run to the toilet every now and then.
Frequency of periodic cough decreases, severity of each attack is almost the same.

And now, 6 minutes before Friday.

So basically, i spent most of my weekdays this week at home.
I didn't attend any of the lectures this week and there is no lecture tomorrow on Friday.
I officially skipped (with a good reason) the whole week's lecture.
Urrgghh..

But, i managed to write SIX blog posts in a week, when before this it might take me three weeks to write one post.
I managed to clean up my work station at home.
I spent more time at home.
I saved a lot on eating my meals in IMU.
I think I gained weight.

I managed to calm myself down.
I managed to watch some news.
I don't have to spend time on driving.

I am still coughing.

I am sleepy.

I wanna sleep. Goodnight.

It's 12.01am now.
It's already Friday!
=)

-AkMaR-
http://akmarr90.blogspot.com

12.01am
Friday 30th April 2010

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

A Simple Twist by The Media


I am always amazed (but at times, disgusted) by the influential power the media has.
Whoever controls the media, is indirectly controlling the world, having the influence to lead the public into thinking the way they want the public thinking, or letting the public know only what they want the public know, hiding some ugly truth behind their reports.

I'm not planning to talk much about the influence of the media, the previous paragraph is only the intro to my post.

I always laughed (but most of the time, disgusted too) at the politics in Malaysia now. Politicians switching parties like changing clothes, accusations of one side to another, back-stabbing etc (oopss.. shdn't be saying a lot on this, i dont really know what happens, again i'm only informed by the media and comprehended the info using my own shallow mind)

Often, during the evening news, we'll be exposed to a lot of the "goodness" of the government and the "badness" and "inefficiency" of the opposition.
The media is bound to praise the government and downgrade the opposition, that is a known fact.
The newsreaders are bound to say sentences like, "keprihatinan kerajaan" or "kelemahan pihak pembangkang" or "kewibawaan pemimpin BN" etc etc...
I am not saying the news are totally wrong but, I believe we must have our own "filter" and judgement to differentiate the truth, the lies and the make-ups.

The oppositions have their own media as well, undeniably.
And it is undeniable that their media will potray their "goodness" and the "badness" and "corruption" of the government.
Again, there must always be personal filter to prevent us from being misled.

Anyhow, let's imagine for a while...
Imagine...just imagine that in the next General Election, the opposition wins and they rule Malaysia. Just imagine...


Now, what will the newsreaders read?
"BN yang masih tidak mahu mengaku kekalahan"
"Kerajaan baru yang tidak melupakan kepentingan rakyat"

etc etc...

What do you think?
Hahahahaha...

p/s: I'm not standing on any site of the fence. I'm underage and still cannot vote. Peace!


-AkMaR-
http://akmarr90.blogspot.com

8.53pm

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Distractions at Home

If I study at home,

  1. I'll be very much attached to the internet in front of me
  2. I'll be going up and down the stairs as an excuse of relieving my body of ache as a result of sitting too much.
  3. I'll be heading to the kitchen every now and then, open the fridge and have a bite or two on whatever edible in the fridge. And my aunt had just came back from Australia, she brought lots of chocs back. Arrghh...
  4. I'll be going to the mirror and start brushing my hair and pin here and there and then get back to my desk.
  5. I'll be going into my room, look at my bed longingly and decided not to sleep.
  6. I'll be pitying myself for having to study and decided to sleep on the couch, putting my alarm 30minutes later. And wakes up 1 hour later.
  7. I'll get frustrated when I dont have enough reference book and hoped I can have a med library at home.

Conclusion: Home Sweet Home


-AkMaR-
http://akmarr90.blogspot.com

Complexity

Sometimes we need to pay for the mistakes we made in life.

Sometimes we get off it, and continue with our life. It happened to me a lot of times before.


Sometimes we gotta pay for the mistake we made long long time ago, which we thought we got it off.


Sometimes we thought we're paying for a mistake which we conveniently convinced ourselves we did when actually we didnt.


And sometimes, we pay for mistakes that other people did.


Sometimes, just sometimes, we feel so blessed that we made a mistake and now paying for it.


But most of the time, we blamed other people for the mistake we made without knowing we made the mistake. And when we gotta pay for it, we tell ourselves that we're paying for other people's mistake. 


Complex enough?
This post is generated out of boredom (a BIG FAT lie). It is also generated because i am too tired to study, and is already drained.

This post came out of nowhere when i decided to complicate my mind which is already very complicated now. And I actually wrote this post on Tuesday 27th April 2010 at 7.45pm. It couldnt be published, I've no idea why. Maybe it's because of the coding.

p/s: To whoever it may concern, i am trying and will do my very best to make things better but i will desperately need cooperation. It takes two to tango... =)



-AkMaR-
http://akmarr90.blogspot.com

Monday, April 26, 2010

Just a Thought

I am often asked these Qs:

"How are your studies?"


"How is your exam?"


"When is your exam?"

OR WORSE STILL,

"Do you think you can make it for your exam?"

How am i supposed to answer?

Even if i answered, "No, i dont think i can make it for the coming exam. I still have a lot to study"

Will that make any difference?
The questioner wont be able to do anything also (forget the grammar here)
Duh!

p/s: I'm coughing really badly now, how to stand two hours in lecture later? With the air cond, i'm sure i'l be coughing my heart out and make the hall noisy. Haiz... And PBL later some more, in a small closed room...! Double haiz...


-AkMaR-
http://akmarr90.blogspot.com

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Falling Ill

I dislike falling sick. Other than getting all the attention from family members, there is nothing else to be looked forward to in falling ill. Work cannot be done, study cannot be completed, even staring into the monitor gets my eyes go blink blink.

-AkMaR- http://akmarr90.blogspot.com

Friday, April 23, 2010

All These Minor Little Things

I made a new discovery (I hope to win a Nobel Prize with this discovery... =D ) Ok, that joke is lame, i know.
Anyway, i found out that

Sore throat leads to increased frequency of visits to the toilet.
How? Sore throat leads to cough, leads to increased water intake, leads to increased blood volume leads to decreased water retention leads to increased urine output leads to increased toilet visit frequency.

L.A.M.E!!!


-AkMaR-
http://akmarr90.blogspot.com

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Pre Amazing Craze

Assalammualaikum.
I know this is a terribly late post but I STUBBORNLY STILL WANT TO WRITE ABOUT IT.
Hahahaha...

Anyway, IMU Muslim Society in collaboration with the Student Rep Council and Stdnt Service if i'm not mistaken, held an Amazing Craze on 27th March 2010. The game is a mimick of the Amazing Race but it's IMU edition and it's held in conjunction with the Earth Week. Each team consists of only two members and I got my husband to be my partner!! Yeay...!! The first prize was 2 tickets to Langkawi, 2nd was two tickets to Genting Highland and 3rd was two tickets to Sunway Lagoon. Me and my husband aimed the Sunway ticket bcos it's been a long time since we've been there, and we've never been there together.

And so, few weeks before the game, we started jogging! Uh wow.. I've nvr jog in the park near IMU before but i jogged bcos we wanted the Sunway ticket. We jogged for about 2-3 evenings per week. Running up the Bukit Komanwel made me realise that my stamina is very very low. I dared not stop jogging bcos I know perfectly well, once i stop i wont be able to start again. I'd better jog until i really cant move my leg anymore.

The game will take place in Kuala Lumpur city, and we weren't allowed to use our own transport. We need to use public transport and i'm because both me and my husband are from KL and we are very quite   familiar with public transport in KL. That gave us a plus mark.

Both of us also can communicate well, and will not quarrel with each other and so, i trust or at least hoped that we won't start to fight when we're under the pressure to win. That will make things turn bad for us.

I really anticipated the game...............
And this part of the story ends here.
Hahahahaha....
I'll continue writing some other time. Till then, take care!

-AkMaR-
http://akmarr90.blogspot.com

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Tony Blair Is NOT Welcome To Malaysia Unless It’s To Stand Trial For The War Crimes He Stands Accused Of Petition to Malaysian People, Parliament, Courts and Immigration Service.


If you live in Malaysia, or if there’s just something about the slaughter of people you just can’t accept, you might like to sign this:
Tony Blair Is NOT Welcome To Malaysia Unless It’s To Stand Trial For The War Crimes He Stands Accused Of Petition to Malaysian People, Parliament, Courts and Immigration Service.
We the undersigned declare Tony Blair is:
a) A suspected war criminal.
b) Not immune from prosecution for his alleged crimes.
c) Jointly responsible for the deaths of over a million innocent civilians.
d) Not welcome in Malaysia unless it’s to enter a court of international law to be tried for the war crimes and crimes against humanity for which he stands accused.
Signatories call for:
 i) The Malaysian Authorities to declare Tony Blair “persona non grata”, thereby refusing him entry into its territory (scheduled between 23rd to 25th April 2010).
ii) Richard Tan, CEO of “Success Resources”, and upon the National Achievers Congress (NAC) to withdraw their shameful invitation to Tony Blair to speak at Sunway Pyramid Convention Centre, allowing Blair to make financial gains from his deadly decisions.
PLEASE PASS ON TO ALL.


From Akmar
What is this all about? 
Well, to put it in a simpler sentence, Success Resources is holding  National Achievers Congress (NAC) at Sunway Pyramid Convention Centre in April 2010 and guess what, they are inviting Tony Blair as their speaker!
This will mean that the man who thought he managed to deceive the world by sending troops to unnecessary countries  (read Iraq and Afghanistan) and committed massive murder will be giving a talk on "achievers".
Bizarre enough?
And so, this petition calls for the declaration of Tony Blair as "persona non grata" thus denying him entry into Malaysia and preventing him from speaking in the congress. The petition also demand that Success Resources withdraw their invitation to Blair as a speaker in their congress. 


To sign the petition, click here.


-AkMaR-
http://akmarr90.blogspot.com

Of Watch and Of Motorcycle

The Watch Story

I was given a watch as my UPSR gift from my mum. It was a POLO watch, the first expensive watch i owned. My watches before that were those Sailormoon, Power Rangers pasar malam watches. I still have the receipt and  the watch box with me till now. *Yea i know, i'm just too sentimental to throw them away*

Anyway, the watch cost my mum RM39.90 (only?) in November 2001 and i really treasured the watch. The next year, i went to a district level girl guide camping with few other friends and teachers. It was a 3 days 2 nights camping. On the last day, in the toilet, i took the watch of my hands to shower, and put it next to my other stuff. And i forgot to wear it back after bathing. I went out of the toilet and go for the closing ceremony.

As usual, during and after the closing ceremony of a camp, participants will exchange numbers and addresses so that we can keep in touch with each other (frankly, i forgot where i put all the numbers).
Moments before going into my teacher's car to go back to school, i realised i wasnt wearing my watch, and i remembered vividly putting it next to my pants in the toilet, but i cant remember taking it back. And that was at least 4 hrs ago. The journey back to school was delayed bcos of me. I ran back to the toilet to look for the watch, and i went to look at other places as well. My friends helped in the hunting mission but all of us failed in agony.

And so, i sadly board the teacher's car and head back home. I cried along the way back, and fell asleep.
When i woke up, my eyes were sore, and i remembered back why i cried and tears started to drop again. When my parents fetch me from school, i cried telling them i lost the watch. At home, i cried again praying hard i'll find the watch. I dont even mind if i find it on the day i die. That was the extent of my imagination then...

Currently, i am wearing the watch my mum bought for me before i started my A Levels 3 yrs back, and i'm determined to use it until i finish my medical degree. Really hope i can take good care of the watch this time...

The Motorcycle Story

My mum has been using my car for more than a week now, her car went into "ICU".
And so, since she can't send me to campus, my dad needs to.
And my dad rides a motorbike everyday to work.
This brought us to one simple fact, "I've been going to IMU by motorbike for two consecutive days!"
Wow...
The last time i went on a motorbike, if i am not mistaken was when i took the license, almost 3 yrs back. And so, the first journey ystrday was really exciting and scary.
It was so cold, my legs felt numb, but adrenaline is circulating in high amount in my body that cant stop myself from grinning along the journey, really..
I made few funny faces, playing with the muscles of the face and getting buccal tired by the time i reached IMU. =)

-AkMaR-
http://akmarr90.blogspot.com

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Oh, free!!!

On exam day...
Summative on Friday, 12th March.
I fell sick.. Great...
Hahahahaha....
I cant really answer my paper, slept right after i finished answering, didnt even had the energy to check my answers.... *this could actually be a psychogenic illness but...........*

Post exam syndrome...
I know very well that i didnt do my best for the summative...
But as usual, i dont really sulk over it. This just mean that i need to strive harder for the next exam lah...
This weekend is one of my free-est weekend.
I didnt study at all, only did some of notes organising work, to prepare myself for the coming system, Haematology.

I went to Mines on Saturday, to Metro Kajang on Sunday. I actually planned to watch movie with my sis in Jusco tonight (Sunday) but she's too tired to accompany me (she had just came back from a state level competition in Banting for 2 days). At first i wanna watch Little Big Soldier but, the movie is no more on screen... =(
That's the disadvantage of delaying watching movie session, the movie is no more on screen, to buy the ori DVD, it's too expensive, pirated ones dont come in good quality. Haiz...  I heard Alice in Wonderland is a nice fantasy movie, maybe i'll persuade sis to go watch with me, if she has the time and mood (i'm starting to wonder who's the elder sis and who's younger now).

I printed a bundle of notes for the week early this morning, and i'm kinda highly motivated now, want to start a new chapter in my semester 3, to excel in exam... We'll see what i'll be writing here a week before the next summative k, most probably i'll be complaining of lack of preparation... Hahahaha...

Now is 9.06pm and 12hrs from now i should be in IMU lib, to start my day studying hard...again...
LIFE...
Ok, enough of rantings...
Salam...


-AkMaR-
http://akmarr90.blogspot.com

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Only 5 Days Left

Assalammualaikum....
Yea...only 5 days left for my summative 3...
God, i really am not ready for it yet..
I'm drained..
I heard this exam will be making 12.5% of my semester exam! Duh, that's a lot man...
I cant be playing this time, my result will determine my placement for the country i'm going for PMS.
I had nvr had the confident to say it out loud in case i couldn't make it.
But yea, i think i shd be saying it out loud now. A booster for me to achieve higher...


I WANT TO GO UK FOR MY CLINICAL YEARS...
SPECIFICALLY, UNIVERSITY OF MANCHESTER

Now, i really need to study and push my way through this summative and score well for end of sem exam.

p/s: to Diana Rizal, sorry but ur birthday falls on my summative day. I dont hv time to buy any present yet, but be assured, i'll go for a nice "shopping and jalan2" during the weekend and come back to u with a gift on Monday the 15th. At first nk pretend tp forget ur birthday but since u know i didnt forget, i decided to announce it here je la.. Hahahaha...

-AkMaR-
http://akmarr90.blogspot.com

Monday, March 1, 2010

A Story Behind It

Assalammualaikum wrt wbt.
Remember PMR History syllabus?

Parameswara, the Prince of Palembang which was ruled by Majapahit, ran to Temasik (Singapore).
There, he was treated nicely by Temagi, the ruler of Temasik. At that time, Temasik was under the power of the Siamese.

Now, what happened then?
The history goes that Parameswara killed Temagi, to get Temasik under his rulings.
But when Siam got to know that their representative, Temagi was killed, thet sent a troop to Temasik to capture Parameswara.
Parameswara then ran to Malaya and settled down in Malacca.
He built an empire in Malacca, and later started sending "protection money" to Siam so that they wont come and attack Malacca.

Now, time to think (or maybe imagine....)
Parameswara, the prince who managed to build Malacca, must be a smart man.
Even if not very smart, he can't be stupid, can he?
Why then, did he "foolishly" kill Temagi to get Temasik? Obviously he knew that Temasik is under Siam's ruling, and Siam was a VERY powerful country at that time, why then did he find trouble?
There was no way he can escape from killing Temagi could he?

Now, imagination comes in.
Who knows, Temagi actually flirted with Parameswara's wife or perhaps daughter at that time...
Then Parameswara was challenged, and killed Temagi.
Sounds logic right?
It's just like those Chinese Dynasties. The history is one thing, the story behind it is another.
Be it the admiral fell in love with the enemy's princess, or one of the 500 emperor's concubines.
Or one of the concubines tried to kill the empress to get the emperor's attention.
Or one of the princes tried to overthrow his own father so that he can be crowned.
Or anything at all.... (ok ok, maybe this is kinda too fairy tale but it can still happen, i'm sure)
There are reasons in every single thing that happen in this world.

So, i am vry sure something happened btw Temagi and Parameswara more than 800 yrs ago.
But the history i studied at school just stated that Parameswara wanted to overthrow Temagi, which for me is a very very foolish act.

Ok, i'm sorry that i really didnt do any extra reading before writing this. I dont know if any of our historian described what really happened but MOST Malaysian children only know what was taught at school, and that includes me.

p/s: Been long since i write. Haiz.. Exam in 2 weeks time, die die... A lot more to study.
I cant wait for 13th March, but I dont want 12th March to come. Can?
=P

-AkMaR-
http://akmarr90.blogspot.com

Thursday, February 25, 2010

How I Come To Love The Veil - by Yvonne Ridley

Salam.
As stated, the article below is not written by me but by Yvonne Ridley.
It inspires me a lot and i would like to share it with everyone. The original article can be found here.


POLITICIANS AND JOURNALISTS just love to write about the oppression of women in Islam ... without even talking to the females beneath the veil.

They simply have no idea how Muslim women are protected and respected within the Islamic framework which was built more than 1400 years ago.
Yet, by writing about cultural issues like child brides, female circumcision, honor killings and forced marriages they wrongly believe they are coming from a point of knowledge.


And I am sick of Saudi Arabia being cited as an example of how women are subjigated in a country where they are banned from driving.
The issues above have simply nothing to do with Islam yet they still write and talk about them with an arrogant air of authority while wrongly blaming Islam. Please do not confuse cultural behavior with Islam.
I was asked to write about how Islam allows men to beat their wives. Sorry, not true. Yes, I'm sure critics of Islam will quote random Qur'anic verses or ahadith but all are usually taken out of context. If a man does raise a finger to his wife, he is not allowed to leave a mark on her body ... this is another way of the Qur'an saying; "Don't beat your wife, stupid".

Now let's take a glance at some really interesting statistics, hmm. I can almost hear the words pot, kettle, black. According to the National Domestic Violence Hotline, four million American women experience a serious assault by a partner during an average 12-month period.


On the average, more than three women are murdered by their husbands and boyfriends every day . . . that is nearly 5,500 women battered to death since 9/11.
Some might say that is a shocking indictment on such a civilized society, but before I sound too smug, I would say that violence against women is a global issue. Violent men do not come in any particular religious or cultural category. The reality is that one out of three women around the world has been beaten, coerced into sex or otherwise abused during her lifetime. Violence against women transcends religion, wealth, class, skin color and culture.
However, until Islam came on the scene women were treated as inferior beings. In fact we women still have a problem in the West where men think they are superior. This is reflected in our promotion and wages structure right across the spectrum from cleaners to career women who make it into the boardroom.
Western women are still treated as commodities, where sexual slavery is on the rise, disguised under marketing euphemisms, where womens’ bodies are traded throughout the advertising world. As mentioned before, this is a society where rape, sexual assault, and violence on women is commonplace, a society where the equality between men and women is an illusion, a society where a womens’ power or influence is usually only related to the size of her breasts.
I used to look at veiled women as quiet, oppressed creatures and now I look at them as multi-skilled, multi-talented, resilient women whose brand of sisterhood makes Western feminism pale into insignificance. My views changed after the truly terrifying experience of being arrested by the Taleban for sneaking into Afghanistan in September 2001 wearing the bhurka.
During my 10-day captivity I struck a deal that if they let me go I would read the Quran and study Islam. Against all the odds, it worked and I was released. In return I kept my word but as a journalist covering the Middle East I realized I needed to expand my knowledge of a religion which was clearly a way of life.
And no. I'm not a victim of Stockholm Syndrome. To be a victim you have to bond with your captors. During my imprisonment I spat, swore, cursed and abused my jailers as well as refusing their food and going on hunger strike. I don't know who was happier when I was released - them or me!
Reading the Quran was, I thought, going to be a very simple academic exercise. I was stunned to discover that ut clearly stated women are equal in spirituality, education and worth. A woman’s gift for child birth and child-rearing is very much recognised as a quality and attribute. Muslim women say with pride they are homemakers and housewives.
Furthermore The Prophet (pbuh) said that the most important person in the home was The Mother, The Mother, The Mother. In fact he also said that heaven lies at the feet of the mother. How many women make it into the top 100 power lists for simply being a "great mother"?
With Islam choosing to remain at home and raise children takes on a new dignity and respect in my eyes, similar to those sisters among us who choose to go out to work and have careers and professions.
I then began looking at inheritance, tax, property and divorce laws. This is where Hollywood divorce lawyers probably get their inspiration from. For instance the woman gets to keep what she earns and owns while the man has to stump up half his worth.
Isn’t it funny the way the tabloid media gets very excited over the prospect of some pop or film stars pre-nuptial wedding agreement? Muslim women have had wedding contracts from day one. They can choose if they want to work or not and anything they earn is theirs to spend while the husband has to pay for all the household bills and the upkeep of his family.
Just about everything that feminists strived for in the 70s was already available to Muslim women 1400 years ago.
As I said, Islam dignifies and brings respect to motherhood and being a wife. If you want to stay at home, stay at home. It is a great honor to be a home maker and the first educater of your children.
But equally, the Quran states if you want to work, then work. Be a career woman, learn a profession become a politician. Be what you want to be and excel in what you do as a Muslim because everything you do is in praise of Allah (swt).
There is an excessive, almost irritating concentration or focus on the issue of Muslim womens’ dress particularly by men (both Muslim and non-Muslim).
Yes, it is an obligation for Muslim women to dress modestly but, in addition, there are many other important issues which concern Muslim women today.
And yet everyone obsesses over the hijab. Look, it is part of my business suit. This tells you I am a Muslim and therefore I expect to be treated with respect.
Can you imagine if someone told a Wall Street executive or Washington banker to put on a t-shirt and jeans? He would tell you his business suit defines him during work hours, marks him out to be treated seriously.
And yet in Britain we have had the former Foreign Secretary Jack Straw describing the nikab - the face veil revealing only the eyes - as an unwelcome barrier. When, oh when, will men learn to keep their mouths shut over a woman's wardrobe?
We also had Government Ministers Gordon Brown and John Reid express disparaging remarks about the nikab - both these men come from over the Scottish Borders where men wear skirts!!
Then we had a series of other parliamentarians enter the fray describing the nikab as a barrier for communication. What a load of nonsense. If this was the case can anyone explain to me why cell phones, landlines, emails, text messaging and fax machines are in daily use? Who listens to the radio? No one switches off the wireless because they can not see the face of the presenter.
The majority of sisters I know who choose to wear the nikab are actually white, Western reverts who no longer want the unwelcome attention of those few leering men who will try and confront females and launch into inappropriate behavior. Mind you, there are a couple of London sisters I know who say they wear the nikab at anti-war marches because they can't stand the smell of spliffs.
I am afraid Islamophobia has become the last refuge of the racist scoundrel. But the cowardly, chauvinistic attacks launched - largely by men - is unacceptable to Muslimahs as well as their secular, female sisters from the left.
I was a feminist for many years and now, as an Islamic feminist, I still promote womens' rights. The only difference is Muslim feminists are more radical than their secular counterparts. We all hate those ghastly beauty pageants, and tried to stop laughing when the emergence of Miss Afghanistan in bikini was hailed as a giant leap for women's liberation in Afghanistan.
I've been back to Afghanistan many times and I can tell you there are no career women emerging from the rubble in Kabul. My Afghan sisters say they wish the West would drop its obsession with the bhurka. "Don't try turning me into a career woman, get my husband a job first. Show me how I can send my children to school without fear of them being kidnapped. Give me security and bread on the table," one sister told me.
Young feminist Muslimahs see the hijab and the nikab as political symbols as well as a religious requirement. Some say it is their way of showing the world they reject the excesses of Western lifestyles such as binge drinking, casual sex, drug-taking etc.
Superiority in Islam is accomplished through piety, not beauty, wealth, power, position or sex.
Now you tell me what is more liberating. Being judged on the length of your skirt and the size of your cosmetically enhanced breasts, or being judged on your character, mind and intelligence?
Glossy magazines tell us as women that unless we are tall, slim and beautiful we will be unloved and unwanted. The pressure on teenage magazine readers to have a boyfriend is almost obscene.
Islam tells me that I have a right to an education and it is my duty to go out and seek knowledge whether I am single or married.
No where in the framework of Islam are we told as women that we must do washing, cleaning or cooking for men - but it is not just Muslim men who need to re-evaluate women in their home. Check out this 1992 exert from a Pat Robertson speech revealing his views on empowered women. And then you tell me who is civilized and who is not.
He said: "FEMINISM ENCOURAGES WOMEN TO LEAVE THEIR HUSBANDS, KILL THEIR CHILDREN, PRACTICE WITCHCRAFT, DESTROY CAPITALISM AND BECOME LESBIANS".
Here is an American man living in a pre-Islamic age who needs to modernize and civilize. People like him are wearing a veil and we need to tear that veil of bigotry away so people can see Islam for what it is.
-AkMaR-
http://akmarr90.blogspot.com